Why I am not afraid?

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Why I am not afraid?

The following is my own personal experience. When I wish to explore the reason behind a fearless state of mind,  I could not stop thinking my personal experiences.

Seldom do people know about the feeling that when there are secret killers around trying to kill you.

You will not know who they are and where they are. 

Or you don't know what kind of killing devices they will use next time.

They had tried to run me down with cars.

They throw snakes on my back.

They put snakes beneath my seat.

The worst of all is that they put poison in my drink....a kind of soft poison which could bring diseases for me.

Why they are not killing me this time with a stronger poison?

Then I know that they are afraid.

There are a much stronger power behind them.

My mother, if she woke up from the tomb, will ask me:  Why don't you stay away from them?

But this is not a question from my own mind.

I have nowhere to go.  I can only stay here.  And the underground party is so strong.  They can kill me, but I cannot kill them.

Aren't you afraid?

No.

Why aren't you afraid?

I'm not even afraid of ghost.

Actually I had seen "ghosts" in an underground car park.

I went back to see,  trying to verify that the ghosts were still there or not.  

They never show up again.

It is all because of my own mindset.

I am not a materialist.

I believe that there is a will from the Unknown for the entire Universe.

And there is a role on my head.

And it is not special.

Everyone has a role on his head.

Can be a good mother,  a good soldier,  or a  good writer.

And my role is not a writer.

I am a thinker. 

I think and I imagine.

Sometimes I dream.

However, I need to write down what I think.

That is my role and I will not be afraid to do it.

What if you are dead?

Sure,  it is your problem not my problem.... if you see me as an obstruction of your way to hell.

When someone who can take every meal as his last supper: 

He will not be afraid.

For me:

每一頓飯都是最後的晚餐。

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