戰 魂 .....and Tolstoy

    

               戰   魂

          潮汐漲退浪海翻，

          高來低去戰難艱。

          撕心裂肉雷陣雨，

          烏烟亂射死光環。

          霧里昏黑持久戰，

          一㦸*在手意未殘。

          尚有一口塵濁氣，

          枕槍靜待月上山。

                                2023.8.3

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戟

It is a sharp spear. 

It is my last giga-byte of strength. 

I am ready and I am waiting, with guns as my pillow for the up-coming moon while my last mouthful of air was so dusty and smelly......

and I know you would be crying if you saw me.

.........

A voice from  "War and Peace".

where Natalie saw a dying Andrew coming back from

the war field. She wept.

And this is war.

And this is what Tolstoy had meant in his masterpiece. It is love.

Last words:

....from you tear I saw my face

it must be a hard war I had been fighting

sorry to let you see me in blood

I love you more than myself

I love you so

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