Why suffering seems unavoidable sometimes?

 20260513

Why suffering seems unavoidable sometimes?

 I was trying to write something, when I marked the date "May 13" on my screen.

Actually, before I tried to write anything, my mind was uneasy and disturbed.

Old tragic family sufferings kept coming back to my memory before I marked the date on my script.

My mother had an early death on that day.   I was eleven and she was fifty years old when she died.

And I was under the care of my grandmother since.

I was a bad boy by then. 

My school kicked me out when I was 13.   I did all the bad things in the eyes of the teachers by then. They didn't want me anymore and then they threw me away.

I managed to find another school thanks to the bad  economy situation when schools only need you to pay school fees.  I had a place luckily in another school.  And then I determined to make up my studies and behave myself.

It was like a nightmare gradually fading away.

But my question appeared:

Why sufferings are unavoidable for some people but not all?

Suffering was a blessing too.

If I have never suffered,   I will not have made up my mind.   Maybe I'll be the same as any other office workers working on the high-rising buildings in Hong Kong.  I will not see the scenery differently.

Sufferings are good to me.

I suffered more than ever afterwards.

It was from the oppressions of the underground secret party in China and Hong Kong.

It seems they have a power to put different people in different positions.   They have a secret network trying to control China.  They have tried to kill me many times.  If I were silenced,  maybe their secret  control will be more smooth.

All I can believe is that China will be still rising.  The rise of a modern China is a historical trend. Some people might die for it, but it cannot stop the rising movement of a culture, even with the huge opposition power from an undeground, and foreign controlled party.

The sun will be rising every day, still.

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